Issues
What issues do I have that I'm willing to acknowledge in a public forum?
At some point I should take another look at these and apply a perspective transformation using irregular verbs.
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Shyness / Social Phobia
I find it particularly difficult to say hello to people I hardly know. This effect is amplified when the 'target' concerned is a female I'm attracted to. Bit of a problem in a world when men still have to do the asking out.
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Obsessive Compulsive behaviour
From what I read I only partly fit the definitions of this as a fully blown psychological disorder. However, there are a number of repetitive behaviour modes I can get stuck in. I'm particularly easily addicited to computer games for example. They have to be completed even if they are crap. I play on at times when my level of frustration has got beyond the threshold that I should stop and carry on another day. I play much too often. I play crap games no-one else would touch with a barge pole (Monsterville anyone?). I also play RTS style games against the computer in pointless 'tests'. Such as what happens if I attack using only this kind of unit. Only that seems too useful to constitute a good example of the kind of pointless things I can catch my self doing when playing against a machine.
Similarly books have to be finished. Lately I seem much more able to stop and switch my attention to something else. This is a good thing. However, I seem to be able to switch back as an excuse not to do something more worthwhile such as work. This is a bad thing.
On the positive side my obsessive compulsive streak makes me a serious workaholic in the right circumstances. Provided those circumstances are fostered I can blaze through any task set.
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Difficulty in masking some feelings
I have difficulty in masking certain feelings. That said, others seem to go by completely unremarked when I feel sure they ought to be registered. A particular failing dispite my attempts to conceal it is being a bad winner and a bad loser when playing games. Its very hard not to enjoy winning but a bad winner is someone who fails to conceal his enjoyment sufficiently. I try not to gloat but sometimes something escapes. As far as possible I do my gloating in private away from the losers at it makes them sore. Equally I dislike being a loser myself (never was a truer word spoken many will say). I tend to take it personally as though it is down to some personal failing rather than a peice of bad luck or a harmless mistake. I'm not so bad with the odd loss but several in a row has a definite negative effect. Another good one is attraction. Its usually abundantly clear to a woman that I'm attracted to her. This has made it difficult to keep female friends as all the drooling tends to put them off.
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Sharp tongue
Sometimes I can be quite insulting without meaning it. Usually this tendency is well suppressed but sometimes it gets loose. I believe to be a self-defence mechanism induced by being the victim of other peoples sharp tongues in my formative years.
What issues do I have that I'm not willing to acknowledge in a public forum?
TO DO: Add link to private section with priviledged access only.